Monthly Archives: June 2017

04Jun/17
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220,000 Woman Inmates

Greetings Ladies!

Due to the many injustices in the American justice system the rate of woman Inmates have increased by more than 65% over the past 40 years. That’s close to 220,000 since the late 70s.
Woman inmates are Wives, Mothers, and Sisters- delicate beings by nature. Is it fair that these Women are processed in the same mannerism as a Male Inmate? Should they not be dealt with differently during their menstrual cycle? Although, still following the program policy. Children are being abandoned at alarming rates due to Women being incarcerated for longer periods than normal.
It is not unheard of for a Woman to go to prison for attempting to protect herself, her children or feed their belly’s due to some sort of hardship. Not making any excuses but should these woman who may even be carrying a child be physically restrained or handcuffed? What happens during giving birth to a child while incarceration? Are they still restrained during such a traumatic episode?
There are many Women inmate victims inside the prisons today and many being victimized on a daily basis. Have you been physically or sexually assaulted? Where are the resources to help the Woman that may not speak up?
Enticing Resultz Magazine would love to hear from you. Your message will be heard loud and clear by the masses. Now’s the time, your moment is here. Write something for the people. We understand that incarceration can be a dark area in an individual’s life, so let’s turn this around and allow your situation to be a beacon of light to the community and other women facing these many challenges. Your thoughts and opinions matter still. Clear your mind with the pen!
Start today! Allow ERMAG to be the platform for your voice to be heard. We have many categories for you to choose from. Let’s see what fits you. We strongly feel that if you become part of this family it will help you and someone else.

04Jun/17
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Sexy Signs of Astronomy

Sexy Signs of Astronomy
By Thelma Balfour
For all of you Skeptics, who don’t believe in astronomy, here is a short lesson on how you can get more than your share of orgasms just by knowing what the sun signs are people who are swinging from the rafters, try innovative techniques, and trying to please their partners.
Aries the Ram
March 21st to April 19th
Thin-skinned folks beware of this sign if you’re skeptical about soaring with the Eagles, stay away, because an Arian is not squeamish about trying things old or new, and want a partner similarly uninhibited.
Women don’t be surprised by male who will lick your navel, tongue your clitoris, and RAM his penis into your mouth.  If you want your nipples sucked you will get your toes, ears, fingers, and all other extremities sucked as well. Like the Scorpion the Arian has an insatiable appetite that few can satisfy, and once involved with this Dynamic sign, there’s no turning back.  The more you thwart his advances, the more turned on he gets.  Screams of Mercy from pain he inflicts during sex just turn him on; the more you protest, the better he likes it.  You name it—pulling, biting, thrusting, and spanking–he does it all.
For a man involved with an Aries woman, sexual explosion could take place anywhere, including the backseat of a car, an office desk, or even her mother’s house.  Completely sensual and passionate, this woman has a voracious appetite and likes to call the shots in sex, sometimes resorting to thick ropes, leather whips, and spiked heels to gain control.  These women Pride themselves and giving “good head,” but look out for her sharp teeth and fingernails.
Arians are physically attracted to Librans, and their opposites sign, but this combination won’t go far outside the bedroom.  Their compatible signs for Gemini, Leo, Aquarius, and Sagittarius.

Taurus the Bull
April 20 to May 21st
Although there won’t be many group sex or whips and chains, this sign love sex and have an insatiable appetite.  With both the male and the female, we’re talking a straight fuck of the up-and-down variety.
The Taurus man prides himself on being a good lover because he set out to master the art of lovemaking at an early age.  There won’t be much kinkiness with this slow, methodical lover, but the end result is satisfying encounter.  What he lacks in creativity, he makes up tenfold in his ability to “hang in there” (no pun intended) when others fall shorts.  Men are turned on by musty odors, kisses, and light touches to the neck and throat area.  They also adore large asses, preferring these to tits.
The Taurus woman is titillated by hot, wet kisses in/on the mouth and neck, and lots of sucking everywhere.  Her usually flawless skin should be complimented as soon as she discards her clothes, and her body should be treated like a temple. She craves oral sex and is a master (mistress?) at giving head; although she likes to satisfy her partner, don’t expect any unconventional sexual behavior until she gains your trust. Taurus women have an infinity for lesbianism (everyone loves a Taurus!) as well as for nymphomania because they need sex and they need it often.
Scorpio is the opposite sign for Taurus. In fact, these two can barely stay out of the bedroom long enough to eat—food, that is.   Compatible signs include Cancer, Pisces, Capricorn, and Virgo.

Gemini, the Twins
May 22 to June 21
The sign of the twins mean two different personalities, so the wonderful man or the woman that you have sex with last week may be a different person the next. Beware, you may be taking for a ride but then again you may enjoy the trip. You may flirtatiously stroke the hands and arms of a Gemini, only to discover that he or she is running hot and cold at the same time.  Remember, you’re dealing with two distinct personalities–one who enjoys watching his or her partner reaction, and one who’s busy analyzing his or her own performance.
Although the Gemini men often courts prostitute and leans towards bisexuality, he gets a C for performance because he’s more concerned about himself than about his partner’s satisfaction. He loves kinky sex which group because of the chance to have sex with a variety of partners. Don’t be surprised by mirrors on the ceiling and walls, red and blue night-lights in the room, and an assortment of toys–penis extenders, vibrators Ben-wa Balls–because the bed is the Gemini’s playground.
The female Gemini is often the aggressor, seeking more and more satisfaction from sex. Stimulated by a vivid imagination, she too likes games and toys, but revels in spontaneity and surprise. She’s curious rather than kinky, and is easily aroused by body odors: semen, perspiration, soil sheets.
Signs compatible with Gemini include Aquarius, Leo, Libra, and Aries
Cancer, the Crab
June 22 to July 22
Moody, insecure Cancer likes to have nipples, breast, and chest caressed and kissed.   In fact, they are extraordinary kissers themselves. This should come as no surprise since they are the true romantics of the Zodiac and embody the idealistic view of love and sex in that order. They wrote the book on romance, moonlight, and music, so you’ll get no open, raw mind-blowing sex. Proceed with caution.
The woman sexual gratification is just as important as the male as his own.  Let him run the show initially. Restless idealistic sensitive and insecure complex and moody, he takes love seriously, so settle in for a long-term relationship.  A fairly traditional lover, he’s good at foreplay, lingering long and lovingly over the clitoris, which you will stroke to climax. About as kinky as he gets is to dress up in women’s clothes.
The Cancer woman tends to be shy and inhibited, but, once aroused, she is capable of great passion. She likes to stroke her lover’s penis and testicles, as well as to kiss the inside of his thighs before bringing him to climax. These women often masturbate or have sex with lesbians, young boys, or family members.
Compatible signs are Taurus, Pisces, Virgo, and Scorpio

Leo, the Lion
July 23rd to August 22nd
With Leos, you better come prepared for total submission or a less than equal relationship. And if you don’t give pleasure readily, you’re outta there!
Remember the symbolism here: the lion is the king of the jungle and must be treated with respect.  Both sexes want to be in an equal control of lovemaking.  Of course, they must be told how wonderful the encounter was because they are self-assured and work hard and what they enjoy.  The trouble is, if you like lots of foreplay you may be disappointed, because Leos put their energy into the sexual act and the afterplay.
Once aroused, a Leo woman will take the lead and match an aggressive lover stroke for stroke.  When you enter her plush boudoir, you’d better perform or you’ll be thrown out of the Queen’s bee hive never to enjoy her “honey” again.  She made be receptive to a little kinkiness because it alleviates sexual boredom, and may even use a dildo to enter her lover from behind.
Her male counterpart is a tiger in the bed and doesn’t like a tease; he expects his partner to be ready and willing whenever he wants her, which is most of the time.  A Leo, like a Gemini, loves to screw with the lights on, not for anatomy purposes, but so you can admire his body.  A Leo man is the most unconventional when it comes to sticking to the rules of “pajama game,” so sit back, relax, and enjoy the erotic roller coaster ride.
Aquarius is Leo opposite sign.  This combination may work for a while as passion seeks new heights, but over the long haul it won’t last.  Compatible signs are Aries Gemini Sagittarius and Libra

Virgo, the Virgin
August 23 to September 22
With a Virgo, there won’t be any hot, romantic, impromptu interludes on the beaches, in the back seat of cars, or in a swimming pool, but if you’re looking for commitment, you’ve hit the jackpot!
The erogenous zones of Virgo includes the stomach and the lower chest, so gentle rubbing during a shower and sex will steam up any bathroom or bedroom. Virgos have an infinity for cleanliness, so a shower before sex is a good idea.  They are also realists and traditionalists who find unconventional sex contrary to their prudish nature.  They’re more responsive to marriage or long-term relationship, and  they have decided to have sex, the encounter is well worth the wait.         You can’t jump right into bed with this sign, but don’t misunderstand these are not monks or nuns were talking about.  You won’t have any wild, kinky, or crazy days or any late-night carousing in bars; sex play will be orderly, methodical, and scheduled, just like his/her life.  She has some sexual hang-ups and prefers the missionary position, but she’ll do a lot to please a lover and enjoys mutual masturbation.
He knows the female body and can really turn a woman on, but tends to be fairly conventional unless stimulated by an imaginative partner.  This male has good potential, but sometimes gets sidetracked into voyeurism, masturbation, and sexual obsessions.
A Virgo fits best with a Capricorn, Taurus, Cancer, or Scorpio

Libra, the Scales
September 23 to October 23
Libra’s decisiveness will drive you crazy!!!!  This sign is one of the kinkiest of the kinky, especially the Libra woman.  The symbol is the scales, which usually means weighing the pros and cons of life and sex.
The Libra man has the art of making love down to a fine science, but he sometimes get lost in the foreplay, forgetting about the” play”.  He will sip champagne from your navel or insert objects into your vagina and released them at the point of orgasm.  But don’t rush the man, because Librans love to play in bed all day and most of the night.  He can be dramatic and his approach; he’ll begin with a intimate candlelight dinner (which he prepared!) and champagne, followed by a bath with you, massage, and “dessert.”
The woman of this sign has unusual control of the vagina muscles and can constrict them to bring her partner to orgasm. She’ll take it slow and easy, while she explores your body.  In bed, she’s willing and ready to do what’s needed, and she’ll try anything once.
The opposite sign for Libra is Aries, and the Aries/Libra combination is “hot to trot” in the bedroom but unless this pair comes up with something stimulating, a long-term commitment is not in the cards.  They are most compatible with Leos, Sagittarians, Aquarians, and Gemini.

Scorpio, the Scorpion
October 24 to November 21

If you’re looking for kinky sex, you come to the right person, but you better understand what you’re getting into, because there’s no turning back once you involved with a Scorpion.  While most people are satisfied with two orgasms, a Scorpion wants twelve!
“Sex”  is the key word here.  The Scorpio man or woman is totally obsessed with it.  By that I mean how to get it and more of it,  how to keep it, and how to improve on it.   Nothing is taboo to them, and, once aroused, they’ll perform anytime and anyplace.  When in bed,  they mean business, and they must satisfy their insatiable appetite for sex.  They will use electric devices, props, and whips without hesitation, and they love cunnilingus and fellatio. Soft caresses are out; he’s an animal in bed and she’ll scratch ’til you holler.
One man Scorpion told me that he makes preparations for sexual encounters weeks in advance, choosing just the right music and lighting.  But once intercourse begins, he enjoys six or seven encounters a night, making his companions beg for mercy.  The goal of a Scorpion is to totally possess has mate, both physically and mentally, so proceed with caution.  Don’t tease unless you plan to deliver, because Scorpions will rape if attempts at sex are thwarted by their companions.
The Scorpio woman is daring and experimental, and she’ll do anything to prolong sex, from using vibrators and dildos to popping your behind with a whip.  Boring routines and methodical schedules are not her cup of tea because she brings intensity to all her sexual encounters.  This woman is active in bed and likes to gain control by mounting her partner.
A Scorpion’s best bet is someone born before the sign of Cancer, Pisces, Capricorn, or Virgo

Sagittarius, the Archer
November 22 to December 21
Never think you can totally possess a Sagittarian.  They are flirts by nature and will move from person to person without a thought.  They are adventurous and free-spirited.  Their erogenous zones are hips, thighs, and all areas in between.
The male of this sign are happy-go-lucky type who view sex as play.   They have a liberal attitude towards life and love.  I once knew a dentist who has very little sex as a teenager, so, as an adult, he saw nothing wrong with caring on two and three affairs at the same time.  Nothing embarrasses the Sagittarian; he turned on by body odors and he loves gadgets like dildos in the bedroom.  Let’s get something straight now, a Sag man is his own person and will always be a bachelor even when he’s married.
The Sagittarian woman loves to screw out of doors, and she prefers the man-on-top arrangement.  Although she likes the appetizers, she was to move as quickly as possible to the main course; once at the table, however, she likes to linger over the entrée.  She doesn’t like to experiment, and frequently move from man to man in search of sexual gratification.  Her free spirit can lead her to lesbianism and bestiality.
Compatible signs are Libra, Leo, Aquarius, and Aries.

Capricorn, the Goat
December 22 to January 19
Capricorns are self-absorbed and are more interested in the sexual act itself then in the sexual partner.  They want to dominate in the bedroom because control is important to them.  Outwardly, they seem quite cold, but that’s only a defense mechanism; once aroused, they are rough and sadistic eager to use paddles, whips, or vibrators for their sexual pleasure.
A Capricorn woman doesn’t like to be surprised in bed;  she wants to know what to expect. And don’t worry about a lot of preliminaries, because getting her aroused requires just a few nibbles on the ear and navel.  A traditionalist who prefers the missionary position, she can be turned on, however, by cunnilingus, but doesn’t want to perform fellatio.  A screamer, scratcher, biter, and spanker,  she has a strong sex drive and likes prolonged lovemaking.  As her partner, you’re in for a very long night!
The Capricorn man prides himself on his stamina and his ability to satisfy a woman.  Don’t make the mistake, however, of trying to lead the goat, because he won’t tolerate it.  Instead, let him take the lead.  This man is easily aroused when everything is in place: slow, seductive music, soft lights turned low, and an exotic setting.  He can be sadistic, though, sometimes resorting to simulated rape, and he prefers to climax by anal penetration.
S/he mates best with Virgo, Taurus, Pisces, or Scorpio.

Aquarius, the Water Bear
January 20 to February 18
Men and women of this sign are highly experimental, and will add bisexuality, homosexuality, and lesbianism to their repertoire.  They move slowly in a relationship, but don’t let this fool you; once  these innovators of the sex world are aroused, watch out!!!!  They will do anything to please their lovers, even setting their own pleasure aside in order to please their mates.  Like the Scorpion, nothing is taboo to the Aquarian.
The Aquarius male can get bogged down in  foreplay because he’s a slow, considerate lover, but climax with him is worth waiting for.  He’s a “no holds barred” kind of man, who quickly gets bored with routine sex.  A real doctor of love, he likes French ticklers and tasty sprays; he’ll take two or three sex partners at the same time; and likes the taste of honey on the clitoris and lemon oil on the nipples.
The woman is a slow starter, but, once aroused, she’s extremely creative and imaginative because she loves variety.  She is very sympathetic and giving in a relationship, so is sometimes attracted to impotent men, lonely women, and unhappy husbands.  Idealistic and courageous, she is the most sexually liberated of women, and will do anything and everything for love.  In relationship, she is very tender, warm, and compassionate; consequently, she is often exploited by men who misread her romantic nature.
The Aquarian is drawn to those born under Aries, Gemini, Sagittarius, and Libra

Pisces, the Fish
February 19th to March 20th
Pisceans enjoy sex to the fullest; they are very creative in the bed and are more cooperative in trying innovative types of sex. They will do just about anything short of death to please their partners.  Their apparent shyness and timidity is only a front, for, once the door is closed, they’ll take you on the adventure of a lifetime. On the darker side Pisceans sometimes join sex cults, become prostitutes or engage in long-term master/slave relationships.
Attractive, intelligent, and charismatic, the male is extremely passionate, self-indulgent, and sensitive to others. Although he likes to take the lead in bed, he likes an experienced, sexually demanding woman who will make all of his erotic fantasies come true. He’s definitely a foot man; a mate will drive him wild by massaging his feet and sucking his toes.
The Pisces woman is sexually liberated and will do anything–wear outrageous costumes, endure bondage, give a tongue bath, lie under a “golden shower”– to please her lover. Easily turned on by erotic settings and erotic games, she is a passionate woman who enjoys sex to the fullest and will sometimes use her body to get what she wants.
Capricorn Taurus Cancer and Scorpio are compatible signs.

04Jun/17
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Those Eyes II

Those Eyes II
Those eyes that hynoptizes my mind
Creates a stream that flows continuesly.
Blinding my way of thinking and
leaving my heart skipping.
It’s those eyes that drives me insane
I wish they stop playing games.
I keep climbing this endless mountain.
Each reach becomes harder than the last.
I’m lost in those eyes
Can’t find my way around them.
Each blink brings memories good and bad.
Those eyes is embedded in my mind

04Jun/17
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My Heart Is Broken

My heart is broken
I thought our love was unconditional
I see it has conditions.

When things don’t go your way
then its the highway.

Why want you fight for me.
As long as things is going good for you then
you love me. When I’m writing a paper then you love me.

When I’m looking over documents or just listening to
your dreams then you love me.
But as soon I say something after you hurt me.
then the love is gone.

My heart aches cause I’m not a light switch.
My feelings for you don’t turn off and on. Like yours for me.
Like father like daughter. I see where she gets it from.
I’m good always has been and always will be. nobody ever done anything for me.
I always take care me and everybody else.  I just can’t deal anymore.
I can’t take the pain anymore. Either you going to be true leave the fake shit
for them other groupies.

End the end it’s only me and the love I have for myself.

04Jun/17
So many Questions

So Many Questions III

                                              So Many Questions III

How in the world is Donald Trump President? That’s how we do it now. There are so many mixed emotions about this.

How can a person with no political experience become President? That means that anybody can run for any office as long as the people vote for you. I think it’s all about the money.

Where were they when the voting was going on? I say sit down and be quiet. It’s a little to late for all this BS that’s going on. If you didn’t want him to become president then you should have voted. People have a lot to say when they didn’t even vote for anybody.

Do you think that the new President is going to build a wall? In my opinion I do not think he’s going to build a wall. The President Elect is going to have a lot of people upset with him. He made a promise to his people that he can not keep. I’m just going to sit back and watch it a crumble down around those crazy Republicians.

Why do women stay in abrasive relationships? In my opinion they have low self-esteem and feel that this person actually loves them.

Why are children so disrespectful to their elders? Growing up we was taught to respect our elders.

Where did we go wrong as parents? What happen to it takes a village to raise a child? Now of days if you say something a child that is not yours the parent is ready to fight you. In my opinion things went wrong because children were not allowed enjoy their childhood. Having babies at young age has made young grandparents. There is not big mama anymore.

Why are the police taking our young brothers from us?

Do Black Lives really matters? Or do all lives matters? I feel that all lives matter. No one should be treated wrong because of the color of the skin or where they live. An people of authority have no right to abuse their powers.

04Jun/17
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You decide, Fact or Fiction

Enticing Resultz Magazine is proud to present

You decide, Fact or Fiction….clips of short stories for our readers

There will be a series of clips from short stories that will be printed over a period of time. Some are fact, some are fiction, and the fun is reading each one to determine which is true and which is not. Whether fact or fiction, the clips will entertain and intrigue. Go ahead; take a moment to see if you can decide if this month’s submission is Fact or Fiction…

WELCOME TO THE CHANGE OF LIFE

I know you have heard this saying at least once in your life.” Never judge a book by it cover”. This story called life has many turns and twist that can either make or break you. I can say truthfully, I began this journey early, and learning the meaning of “If a task has once begun never leave it until it’s done, be the labor great or small, do it well or not at all” as stated by my grandmother.

Going up from birth to 5 years old I really couldn’t tell you to much about my life. Never seen any type of pictures even as a little baby around the house. I don’t remember much about my childhood life at all. It’s so sad I can’t even tell you what schools I attended either. My life really began when I turned 12 years old. Just to be honest there are little things I can remember. Such as my mother having another baby when I was around 6 years old. See I’ve been the baby for years and she decided to have another baby with another man. They looked so beautiful sitting around holding and playing with him. I wasn’t feeling this new baby thing at all.

I remember one Christmas night my brother and I was made to go to bed. Mom allowed the new baby which was about 3 now stay up. It was so loud and he was playing his new drum set he had got for Christmas. As I was lying in bed I was thinking how I wish he wasn’t here. I asked my mother if I could use the bathroom because I had a plan. She yelled and said “YES” and get back in that bed. I walked around looking at the adults in the kitchen drinking having a good time. I stopped and took my baby brother drum stick and put in down his throat. I then ran back to the bed I had to share with my other two brothers. I had no idea the baby mouth was bleeding until my mother started screaming for us to come to her. Well my brothers told her it was me that caused him to bleed out his mouth. She beat me until she closed my left eye and I had to miss school for a couple of days.

I then remember around the age of 12 years old. I was ironing clothes and he came pulling on me and wouldn’t stop. I took the iron while it was very hot and stuck it on the side of his leg. Well you already know mom coming again this time with a nice thick paddle. She beat me again this time on my ass which felt like two asses when I sit down. My mother had 8 children 4 boys and 4 girls and I was number 6 as well as the baby girl. I never understood why we had no pictures of us growing up not one. My mother didn’t spend that much time with us due to her working all the time.

I hated the little blue house we were raised in. This house was so damn ruggedly and I was ashamed to have my friends come over. The cabinets falling apart and couldn’t hold anything in them. Roaches was everywhere in the house where you couldn’t never put nothing down on the tables or dressers. We didn’t have hot water to take a bath. We had to put big ass pots on the stove to heat the water. Rust was in the water and to wash something white was out of the question. It would turn yellow even when you use bleach it wouldn’t help. I had just turned 12 years old when I started my cycle. I cried asking my mother why she started my cycle at that time using the word period. I told my mother I wasn’t ready to start bleeding yet as I stood in front of her crying. She looked at me and said to me girl I didn’t put you on your period! She told me to go in the room to talk with my older sisters. She went on to tell me they will tell me what to do and use. It was never explained to me what a menstruation, period or a cycle was by my mother.

At the age of 12 my sister taught me how to use a tampon. Well at this age using tampons was a bad idea because it got stuck. I had to take a trip to the emergency room so that they could pull it out. Because of that hurtful experience I started using the pads instead. Well Pads wasn’t brought in our house because my sisters used tampons. I remember at times not having the pads so I used toilet paper anything except tampons. That was the wrong idea because the tissue started falling from under my clothes. Some days I can remember using white socks, cutting up white shirts anything not to use tampons. My mother didn’t have money like that and I couldn’t keep asking for it. My mother always made it clear she wasn’t made of money. To keep her from yelling and cussing I did what I had to do for myself. I started going to church from Sunday School, Evening service and Night service. I fell in love going to church until I was at church every time the door was opened. Church was my safe heaven I found peace of mind I enjoyed begin there. I hated when church was over because I had to go home.

Around the ages between 13 and 15 years old. I always was at church singing and leading service I so loved it. I didn’t have the clothes to go to church, however I went and have the same clothes on every Sunday. A lady at the church folks called her sister Johnson. She saw I loved doing things at church but didn’t have the clothes. She took me by the hand and took me shopping along with her only daughter. Not only did she buy things for me she also took me to the hair salon to get my hair done. In my minded she was doing things that my mother should be doing for me. Just know I never told anyone how I felt about anything my mother was or wasn’t doing for me. I was learning so much about the Bible and who God was at an early age. Going to school wasn’t easy either growing up with 8 of us in a 3 bedroom 1 bathroom house. I went to school every morning smelling like kerosene and mildew from the smell in our house. We only had one kerosene heater that was burning only at night. During the night if you had to go to the bathroom it was so damn cold. Just know we didn’t have a toilet in our bathroom. We had to use a 10pound bucket and my mother didn’t care who used it. Just know it had to be cleaned at all time or she would start beating everybody ass.

I remember my 7th grade year in school attending Eugene J Bulter middle school. It seems as if my world became much harder than I thought. I was so angry with the world and fought all the time. I can remember how I struggled so hard in math feeling so dumb sitting in class. It had gotten to the point I just started skipping that class every day. See my mother never taught me how to count numbers nor add them together. She felt it was the teachers job to teach me what I needed to know when I got there. I wasn’t taught how to read or write from home I learned a lot on my own. When I heard the word “GOALS” I had no clue what people were talking about. See when I saw people eating shrimps and steak I thought they were RICH. See by the time I had gotten to middle school it gotten harder the work I mean. When I look at life now the word “DRESS CODE’ or ‘NAME BRAND’ items. I knew we really didn’t have much, however what we did have. I can say my mother made sure we were cleaned and looked healthy going to school.

Growing up I can’t remember going to a doctor or to the dentist. If I even had my eyes checked it was done only at school. After a while it left 2 sisters and 2 brothers in the house. You would have thought things would have gotten better with money. Nope things were about the same as if all us still lived in the same house. Then I remember my oldest brother moving out to live with his godparents. He could stand the way we were living in the house and he felt living with them would be better. So now it’s down to 3 girls including me and 1 brother living in the house. We were made to mop every Monday, Wednesday and Friday plus we had to wash clothes outside. We had to hang the clothes outside on a line and just know if a bird shit on them or they hit the ground. We would have to rewash them the same day it happened. When it was time for us to take our baths we would have to put pots on the stove for hot water. Every eye on the stove wasn’t working so we had to keep putting them on until we had enough for the tub to get a bath. The inside of the tub was rusty and the water turned as soon as we put it in the tub.

Even when we washed our white clothes they would turn yellow from the water and rust. The kitchen cabinets were so raggedy we didn’t have doors on them yet we always had a house full of cousins. Because of the stove with only two burners working at the time. It took so long for us to eat dinner at night yet mom always made a meal. Just know if you didn’t want what she was cooking. You either ate it or went to bed hungry so of course I went to bed without eating. Breakfast was cereal with can milk that she added water and we had chickens but I hate eating the eggs. I can go on and on about the food in the house just thank God we had a choice.

*Thank you for taking a moment to read this writer’s submission. Have you decided if this is fact or fiction? Comment below and let us know your thoughts. After all the comments are collected the writer will disclose all the information needed to prove fact or fiction.

04Jun/17
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Hurt and Confused

Hello Diary:

I’m in love with a married man. When I fell in love with him at the time he wasn’t married. Well he always tells me that it’s my fault that he didn’t marry me. I don’t understand that, when I been there for him through thick and thin. The craziest part about the whole situation is that we have a child together. He goes around telling anyone that would listen that we never been in a relationship. How is that possible if we have a child together and we use to live together, sleep in the same bed together. I called that a relationship wouldn’t you. That’s not the most hurting part about the whole situation; the MF married a relative of mines and had a child with her. I was just wondering how she I feel about this situation. I hate my relative with a passion; I can’t stand to be in the same room with this disrespectful female. Child had the nerve to say I don’t want nothing you had. Really …. Really … I can’t tell. That just tickles me every time I think about. What should I do? Should I walk away from the whole situation and go living my life with neither one of them. I just so confused and hurt.

Sincerely yours,

Hurt and Confused.

04Jun/17
dairy

Sincerely yours, Unloved

Hello Diary:
The day started off gloomy with gray skies. It looked to me like it was going to rain. Little did I know that a storm was coming? Not in the form of thunder and lightning, but in the form of mouth bashing. I never thought in a millions years that I would be faced with such destruction from a mouth. What do you do when someone you raise decide to do harm to you? Even though you gave the person the world and would go without just so they could have everything needed and want. A mother and daughter suppose to have a bond that could never be broken. No matter the situation, you always suppose to respect your mother. She gave you life and nine times out ten she raised you by herself without help for the father. So as a daughter or son you know what struggles this women endured so that you could have food on the table and clothes on your back.
When it comes to the point where your child talks down about you to everyone they know and everyone believes this child even though he/she is lying about what her mother does. Well with me I just couldn’t take the talking to me like I’m one of the kids on the street anymore. So I took it upon myself to go put him/her in their place. Now it becomes something totally different when something that came of out you puts their hands on you. That is the most hurting feeling that a mother can endure. Especially hurts when no one’s take my side but everyones on the childs side and praises her like she did a good thing. Knowing this hurt so bad that I decided to end my life. What is the point of living when you can not even get respect from your own child. Then the next thing I know that person with whom I thought was on my side turns around and let’s me know that even they are on her side. I’m giving up all hope and decided that it time to go be with my mommy and granny. I feel that will solve my problem and everyone else’s. I feel that I wouldn’t be missed. Then one a day an angel came and set beside me and told me that life has it ups and downs and that giving up would not be a choice for me. That I was needed in this world to help others in my situation over come the feeling of wanting to die. So I decided to take it one day at time and maybe just maybe I wouldn’t feel so down and unwanted. The only way to heal from this is pray and read my bible. It’s been almost a year now and I haven’t spoken to my child since. I tried to kill myself on numerous occasions. I’m still numb to the whole situation. I don’t think I will never be the same. So I decided to live by myself and write this book about how I can never leave the house. To afraid to leave the house because I feel that I wouldn’t be accepted by anyone because of all the lies that were spreaded about me.
Sincerely yours,
Unloved.